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C U R R E N T-
CLOTHES: gym shorts, sports bra
MOOD: ready to go out
MUSIC: alk3
TASTE: the my freshly brushed teeth
MAKE-UP: none
HAIR: up
ANNOYANCE: my mom taking so long to get home and give me gas money
SMELL: nothing
FAVORITE GROUP: couldn't choose
BOOK YOU'RE READING: a million little pieces
DVD IN PLAYER: none
COLOR OF TOENAILS: pink
WORRY: not finding my shit from last night
-L A S T . P E R S O N...-
YOU TOUCHED: my sister
YOU TALKED TO: Sam
HUGGED: Christine
THAT INSTANT MESSAGED YOU: don't know
YOU YELLED AT: i don't remember. no one lately
YOU KISSED: Mike
- F A V O R I T E -
FOOD: chili
DRINK: sweet tea
COLOR: green, yellow and orange
ALBUM: couldn't pick
SHOES: my flip flops
CANDY: take 5
ANIMAL: cats
TV SHOW: sex & the city
MOVIE: 51st dates
DANCE: ballet
SONG: lots of favorites
VEGETABLE:any kind of beans, potatoes, or broccoli
FRUIT: kiwis, plums and strawberries
CARTOON: family guy
-W H O . D O . Y O U . W A N T . T O...-
KILL: nobody
SLAP: nobody
GET REALLY WASTED WITH: lots and lots of new people
GET HIGH WITH: kim or troy
LOOK LIKE: myself
MY NAME IS: Alexandra
IN THE MORNING I AM: ready to urinate
ALL I NEED IS: happiness
LOVE IS: the best and worst thing that can happen to you
I'M AFRAID OF: my future not turning out the way that i want it to
I DREAM ABOUT: all kinds of wacked-ass shit
-W H I C H . I S . B E T T E R-
COKE OR PEPSI: neither please
FLOWERS OR CANDY: flowers for sure
TALL OR SHORT: taller
-W I T H .T H E. O P P O S I T E. S E X-
WHAT DO YOU NOTICE FIRST: smile
LAST PERSON YOU SLOW DANCED WITH: jasen
WHO MAKES YOU LAUGH THE MOST: hilary
WHO MAKES YOU SMILE: my friends
GIVES YOU A FUNNY FEELING WHEN YOU SEE THEM: not gonna go there
WHO DO YOU HAVE A CRUSH ON: no one
HAS A CRUSH ON YOU: a few... you know
IS EASIEST TO TALK TO: My mom
-D O. Y O U .E V E R-
SIT ON THE INTERNET ALL NIGHT WAITING FOR THAT SPECIAL SOMEONE TO I.M. YOU? no
SAVE AIM CONVERSATIONS? No
WISH YOU WERE A MEMBER OF THE OPPOSITE SEX? nope
CRY BECAUSE OF SOMEONE SAYING SOMETHING TO YOU? sometimes
-H A V E .Y O U .E V E R-
FALLEN FOR YOUR BEST FRIEND? No
BEEN IN LOVE? yes
BEEN REJECTED? no
REJECTED SOMEONE? Yes
BEEN CHEATED ON? Yeah
DONE SOMETHING YOU REGRET? if that's what you want to call it
LIED? Yes
-E X T R A S-
SMOKE CIGARETTES? ugh... yes
COULD YOU LIVE WITHOUT THE COMPUTER? Yes
COLOR YOUR HAIR? no
EVER GET OFF THE DAMN COMPUTER? Yep
HABLA ESPANOL? few bits and pieces
HOW MANY PEEPS ARE ON UR BUDDY LIST? dont know. a lot
DRINK ALCOHOL? Yes
LIKE WATCHING SUNRISES OR SUNSETS? both. but more sunsets
WHAT HURTS MORE, PHYSICAL OR EMOTIONAL PAIN? emotional
-N U M B E R-
OF TIMES YOURE HEART HAS BEEN BROKEN: 1
OF HEARTS I HAVE BROKEN: 1
OF GUYS I'VE KISSED (NOT COUNTING FAMILY): a few
OF GIRLS I'VE KISSED (NOT COUNTING FAMILY): one or two
OF CONTINENTS I HAVE LIVED IN: 1
OF GOOD FRIENDS: a lot
OF CD'S THAT I OWN: a lot
OF SCARS ON MY BODY: a few good ones
-Y O U R . T H O U G H T S-
I KNOW: where i'm content
I'M GLAD: I got to visit my sister today
I WANT: my mom to get home
I HAVE: tons of clothes i never wear
I WISH: hat summer would hurry up
I HATE: nea-sayers
I FEAR: see above (a ways above)
I HEAR: same thing as before
I SEARCH: for something i've lost at least twice a day
I WONDER: why it's so freaking freezing in this room
I REGRET: not too much, really
I LOVE: friends, family, summertime, herb
I CARE: about too many things
I ALWAYS: forget what i'm talking about
I AM NOT: a mean person
I DANCE: all the time to make people laugh
I SING: all day, everyday
I CRY: when i'm mad or sad or hurt
I DO NOT ALWAYS: do what i need to do
I FIGHT: never
I WRITE: a lot
I LOSE: EVERYTHING!!!
I CONFUSE: a lot of people
I LISTEN: to music, nature, and people
I NEED: life
I AM HAPPY: about always
I SHOULD HAVE: not lost my crap last night
I AM: cold
I MISS: being 10 years old
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[07 Feb 2006|10:07pm] |
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I miss the sister... I haven't seen her in 4 weeks now almost. I get to go visit her and go back to the fun times on the 18th. I'm excited! Plus, I have a new job so I'm completely done with school until graduation. But I'm keepin' it a shit ton of busy around here! 
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| The Weekend |
[22 Jan 2006|09:56pm] |
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So since I'm moving to Gainesville for college soon, i figured this weekend would be a good time to go see what the night life was all about there. To make a long story short, I had a freaking blast! I'm even more excited now than I ever was. Met a crap-ton of new people, and the parties were neverending. All in all, I'm definitely glad that I went. I missed some people though. Then Audrey and I drove back this morning to Jax, still drunk. That's always fun too.
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| my head is spinning. |
[17 Jan 2006|06:55pm] |
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I think I'm going to disable comments for this entry... especially since i don't really get many comments on this thing anymore anyway. I just need to vent.
-I take my last big exam for school on the 24th, 25th, and 26th of this month. Whether I pass or fail, decides whther or not i get out of school early for the year.
-I've filled out somewhere around 20 job applications and if I don't get hired by at least one of them, I can't stay in school, which in turn means that I can't graduate.
-I'm failing at keeping my emotions locked up inside, which is what I need to do because letting them out has caused nothing but tons of unnecessary confusion.
-I've spent a few nights with people I promised myself I would steer clear of.
-I've made mistakes that go along with the above mentioned failure.
-I start college on August 20th and I'm scared shitless of doing so, because that means I now have to actually acknowledge the fact that my life is starting.
-I really need a new car because I hate mine.
-I WISH I STILL HAD EVERYTHING HANDED TO ME FOR DOING NOTHING!!! And as selfish as that sounds, it's the truth.
In other words, I'm finding myself to be more and more pathetically unprepared for life in general, than I ever though possible! This sucks. I've fallen into a hole of which I for some odd reason cannot bring myself to crawl out of.... I need some motivation to get my shit together!
Oh! And this just in, I'm definitely the spaw of Satan, a.k.a. my mother! God help us all!
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| happy birthday to me. |
[06 Jan 2006|05:38am] |
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IN ABOUT 4 HOURS, I'LL BE IN NEW YORK CITY, CELEBRATING THE 18TH BIRTHDAY, WHICH OCCURS ON MONDAY. CALL ME WHILE I'M THERE AND SURPRISE ME! 904-305-1862. I'LL THROW A FEW BACK OF THAT BUBBLY FOR EVERYONE WHILE I'M THERE! PEACE & LOVE, A
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[31 Dec 2005|07:21pm] |
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IM SO EXCITED! NEW YEARS EVE IS TONIGHT, ENOUGH SAID. IF YOU KNOW ME, YOU KNOW WHERE I'LL BE. 305-1862! ♥
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[12 Dec 2005|05:52pm] |
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I'm having an explosion of the heart! I'm so excited for the upcoming weeks though. finally a break without classes. filled out the only college application that i'm going to send in at all today... guess i'll just have to hope that i get in. i'm looking forward to new years eve the most of all. don't know what i'm doing yet, but i'm going to make it worth while. Then i leave for NYC on the 6th for the gayest birthday ever. but i know i'll have a blast there. plus, i found a new ID. ha. welp, carry on. peace! ♥, A
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| TOUGH SHIT!!! |
[19 Nov 2005|09:44am] |
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Don't ever put references about me with "im not going to say her name" following short behind. It's pathetic. I don't want to be a part of your negativity anymore! Get over yourself and act, for once, like there are other people in the world aside from you. It's seriously a waste of time. And so has been even caring in the first place... As far as regret goes, I don't regret any of the right or wrongs I have made, because then I wouldn't be who I am today. Most people can learn from things, and if you cannot, just give up now, before it's too late!
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| a bumpy road ahead |
[03 Nov 2005|09:00pm] |
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So hearing from a doctor's point of view that i am officially an alcoholic pretty much sucks. now all that i have to look forward to is a long life as a recovering specimen. ugh... help will be needed from those of you i love and trust. these next few months are going to be quite shaky.
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| sunday night lights... |
[10 Oct 2005|09:33pm] |
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So i went to the jaguars game last night... i had loads of fun... i got all kinds of wasted... i met crap tons of new people... i yelled many profane (is that a word?) words at the opposing team... all in all, i had an absolute blast! not to mention, we kicked their asses!
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[01 Oct 2005|07:46pm] |
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hours of beach soccer = bliss...
i'm in a really weird mood right now with a few different situations. there are a lot of things/people that i have been running into over the past couple of weeks, and it has definitely been makig me wish that i had done a few certain things differently than i chose to. i guess that's life. for me at least. i have nothing else to offer in making this all better. and i don't know what to do. :/
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[01 Sep 2005|12:56pm] |
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YOU ARE ALL FAGGOTS! ...... just kidding. school has been going well for me. we already get progress reports next week and i have all a's. damn. not to mention i get my liscense back in 2 weeks. hooray!
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1. When you look at yourself in the mirror, what's the first thing you look at? my face or my stomach
2.How much cash do you have on you? about $90
3.What's a word that rhymes with "TEST"? pest (like my family)
4.Favorite plant? GANJA never hurt no one
5. Who is the 4th person on your missed call list on your cell phone?
that would definitely be the house if i used a cell phone because that's the only number i will never answer
6.What is your main ring tone on your phone? don't have any ringtones
7.What shirt are you wearing? a nease highschool one.
8.Do you "label" yourself? heck yes! as beautiful! hahaha
9.Name brand of your shoes currently wearing? i'm bare-footed
10.Bright or Dark Room? i'm in a dark room and i love it like that
11.What do you think about the person who took this survey before you?
eh... it's back and forth
12.Ever "spilled the beans"? I'm an alcoholic
13.What were you doing at midnight last night? sleeping with a horrible headache
14.Do you ever click on "Pop Ups" or Banners? no.
15.What's a saying that you say a lot? probably "go to hell, faggot." or "that bitch doesn't have shit one me." (because she usually doesn't).i'm not a nice person
16.Who told you they loved you last? i don't even want to say the weirdo's name
17.Last furry thing you touched? i don't know. probably a blanket
18.How many hours a week do you work? 15-20
19.How many rolls of film do you need to get developed? shit! i still have cameras that are from 5th grade in my room. i will never get around to it.
20.Favorite age you have been so far? 15
21.Your worst enemy? The jealous bitches @ fletcher highschool
22.what is your current desk top picture? a picture of myself... i'm concieted
23.what was the last thing you said to someone? i'll call you back (but i probably wont)
24.If you had to choose between a million bucks or to be able to go back in time to fix all of your mistakes, which would you pick? the million bucks. fuck regreting shit. it's a waste of my time... plus, how the hell does that benefit me?
25. Last text message? "i love you and can't live without you" you know, i get that a lot. :)
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| BACK TO SCHOOL. |
[12 Aug 2005|05:28pm] |
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So, i have made it through week one of my senior year... Only 35 more to go... Not to mention, it's friday so i get to run around and celebrate it with my friends and my amazing boyfriend. Have an awesome weekend everyone!
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